Contingent continuation

Someone not too long ago told me their oppinion that she considered people that write really long texts when communicating with their friends are lazy. See, her idea was that if you can't be bothered to think about how you formulate you sentences, then you usually end up using a whole lot more words to explain everything. I realised she really did have a point, to some extent at least. I thought about giving it a try myself, but honestly, I really like putting down a lot of words when I write something, as long as it's not repetetive. There is something to be said about exploring the beauty of the written language as well. But I give it a try once in a while and it really is quite difficult to tell a great story with as few words as possible.

Anyways, that didn't connect with the title of this post at all. I was thinking about writing som stuff about this alone business that i finished of with last time. See, I spend a rather extensive amount of time alone, and the vast majority of that time, I'm completly fine with it. I usually spend it on the internet basically reading random stuff. Most of the time I have some sort of current obsession that take up more of my time that could probably be considered as healthy. These days it's the show Glee. It's the old episodes, rumours about the upcoming season, the music that has been done and will be done, the cast and their previous works. I try to stay away from tabloid stuff though beccause that would just send the whole thing i a direction I'm not prepared to deal with. But I'm sidetracking again.

So I spend a lot of time alone. It didn't used to be like that though and something I've seen as a consequence of this is that my skills as a listener are starting to become somewhat shaky. I read a post from one of my friends' blogg where he talked about people with good listening skills and started thinking. I realised that since my (self chosen?) solitude has become more extensive, my need to vent my oppinions and thoughts whith people whenever I see them has grown exponentially. I'm not so sure I like that development.

The practical answer is simple enough, just talk to more people. Problem is, I suppose, that that would mean to change my behaviour in a certain way and that's usually not as easy as it sounds. See, we all tend to lean towards a behaviour that is comfortable to us rather than challenging. Sure, some people love to do nothing else than challenge themselves constantly, but honestly, sometimes I belive these peoples biggest challenge lies in realxing once in a while and put words to what they are actually experiencing in a specifik moment. But as I said, I choose this path with a healthy dosage of solitud beccause it's comfortable and I like comfortable. However, as also mentioned in my last post, I do tend to feel the solitude weighing down on me once in a while. Those are the times you start to wonder if that comfortable feeling has perhaps shown you down the wrong way. If that's the case, then life just became even more complex, which sounds about right. Life was never supposed to be easy. It's just, for a while now I've been going by the idea that if you feel fine, trust your gut and do things that makes you feel good, you will end up in a good place. Apparently not, but does that mean you should never trust you gut and do what feels good? Probably not. Gray areas, always around.

So what are you supposed to do? I dunno, but I'm gonna have a cup of coffee. Alone today, perhaps with a friend tomorrow....